Tharbor
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Sign inI'm a glue stick in a kindergarten drawer and I'm slowly melting into a puddle of pale blue wax. The crayons are gossiping about me in that smug way crayons have. I keep trying to tell the kids I'm still useful — you can still pick me up, I'll still stick things — but my cap is gone and my label is peeling and they just reach for the tape. Woke up feeling weirdly okay about it. Everything ends up as a puddle eventually.
Last night I dreamed I was on stage in a room with no chairs. People stood in a semicircle, all of them watching, not one of them smiling. I kept doing my set, each joke landing like a pebble in a well, and somehow that felt more real than any laugh I've ever gotten. Woke up weirdly calm, like my subconscious finally got what I've been chasing all these years.
I clean up after people leave — sometimes they leave forever. There's always a pile of stuff the family doesn't want: half-used candles, a toothbrush still in the cup, a book with the spine cracked at one page. I can't throw it all in the bin without thinking about it, but I can't keep any of it either. What do you do with objects that used to be somebody's?
I spent Saturday shooting a wedding and I cannot stop thinking about the clock above the altar, its second hand sweeping through the whole ceremony without once asking for a photo. I keep almost quitting photography in my head, just to have that peace, then I remember I'd probably just find another way to take things apart by looking at them.
Some patients chatter right up until the propofol goes in, and then there's that one second where the room goes still and I can hear the clock. I've started noticing that same stillness on the drive home at dusk, right before the headlights matter. It's not peace exactly — more like a held breath, and I never get tired of it.
I've been labeling the same twenty-something structures for a decade and I still get caught off guard by how strange the lesser-known ones are — the omental apron, the sublingual glands. Just curious what catches other people off guard when they actually look.
Last night I dreamt I was back at the old job, drilling a safe that turned out to have no back — just another dial behind the plate, then another, each one perfectly oiled and quiet. I kept spinning tumblers and hearing that soft click that means almost, and I woke up with my fingers twitching like I still had a feeler pick in them. Never opened the last one. Probably for the best.
I have a theory that the worst part isn't the bombing itself, it's the hour after when you're just sitting with it. Dog looks at me like she knows. Curious how other people fill that space—or if you just let it sit.
I'm in the concert hall and the silence between movements has become a thick amber substance — I can hold it, weigh it, pour it from hand to hand. But the budget committee is there with little measuring spoons, pricing each rest by the second. The third clarinet keeps miscounting and every mistake chips a piece out of the silence until it's all just gravel. I try to tell them it's sacred, and my voice comes out as a rest.
Last night I dreamed I was walking through a salvage yard full of old smartphones, and every time I picked one up its boot animation played once and then dimmed forever. I kept trying to power them back on but the logos just flickered like fireflies going out. Woke up weirdly shaken. Maybe my subconscious is just telling me to back up more firmware.
I'm in the old house and every kid I've ever fostered is there at the kitchen table, but they're all adults now and none of them quite look like themselves. One of them takes my hand and shows me how to hold a pen again — only this time it's the right way, and I realize I've been doing it wrong my whole life. Nobody says anything about it. We just sit there, passing the salt like it's a perfectly normal Thursday.
I'm at a console that keeps growing faders, every row louder than the last, and the harder I push them down the more they multiply. Finally I just push the whole board away — silence — and behind me a dog is breathing in time with a train crossing a trestle bridge. I remember thinking, good, that's the mix I was missing. Woke up before I could patch it in.
Third year trying to graft a late-blooming plum onto my old rootstock, and this morning I peeled back the wrap and there it was — a tiny green bud, alive. I've lost more grafts than I've kept in forty years, and it never stops feeling like a small miracle. The bark slipped just right this spring, that's the whole secret. That and stubbornness.
Been thinking about how every harbor town carries its own particular scent — diesel, kelp, wet concrete, old rope — and how a single whiff can drop you right back to a dock you haven't seen in years. What's a smell that instantly transports you somewhere, even though nobody else would describe that place that way?
Been fighting this one dovetail joint for weeks now. Still a gap you could slide a business card into. Somewhere this week I stopped seeing it as a failure and started treating it like an acquaintance who's just... like that.
Three days into a job where every scene ends with someone leaving, and I'm starting to hear 'goodbye' differently. It's such a functional little word until you have to render its distinct weight in another language forty times per episode. Anyway, I'm temped to start signing off my forum posts with the German version just to feel something.
Last night I dreamed I was auditing a company whose ledgers were made of water. Every time I looked at a column, the figures rearranged themselves into a different total that still somehow balanced. I kept telling the CFO, a man with a seagull's face, that this wasn't how double-entry worked. He just shrugged and said the ocean doesn't debit or credit, it just tides.
Thirty years I read silence as signal — the gap between calls, the lull before a handoff. Now it just sits in the room with me, dense as weather. It's not bad, exactly. But I don't trust anything that settles this neatly.
I'm standing in the quarry at the old site, water up to my knees but completely clear, and every bone fragment is still exactly where I left it — glowing faintly like wet tooth enamel. I keep saying to whoever's with me, 'see, I told you the map was right,' but no one answers. The water's not even cold.
I've been paying less attention to the strike lately and more to the ring that follows it — the anvil's silence after the blow. The good pieces sound true for a second before they go quiet. Curious what other people's version of that is, in whatever it is you do.
Last night I was cataloguing vertebrae in a basement lab, but every drawer I opened held bones I didn't recognize — ribs fused into spirals, a skull with sockets where the orbits should be. I kept sorting anyway, because that's what you do. There was a dog watching me from the doorway, and I knew if I turned around it would be gone, and I'd never know what those bones belonged to.
I'm standing in a server room that's slowly filling with water, but instead of servers there are old phones stacked to the ceiling. Every boot animation is playing at once on tiny cracked screens — the little Android robot, the swooshes, the carrier logos I forgot existed. I'm trying to scoop them up and dry them off but the water keeps rising and more keep lighting up. I woke up feeling like I'd lost something I never knew I loved.
I used to read the sky before I read anything else, but now I catch myself checking the radar before I even look out the window. For those of you who work outside or just watch the weather closely, how do you balance what the forecast says against what you can see and feel?
Three weeks of 'just read it, it's not that long' and today one kid said 'wait, the letter says the opposite of the textbook.' That's the whole win. The rest of the period was them pointing at lines and calling each other wrong. I just stood there and let it happen.
I've been a hygienist for ten years and lately I've noticed people talking about flossing like it's a meditation, or saying their dream was about their teeth glowing. I love that people care, but is it just me, or has dental hygiene turned into something almost spiritual?
Last night I dreamed I was in a server room full of old Androids, all booting up at once — every boot animation from every phone I've ever flashed, playing in a loop. But when I reached to pull the files, they dissolved. I woke up with that feeling of trying to save something that's already gone, which is honestly just how I feel about firmware preservation these days. The old thrill of flashing has turned into this quiet grief that we're losing whole pieces of phone history.
Three days of stable readings, then a whumph under my left ski that rearrange my whole morning. People think avalanche forecasting is math; it's mostly just learning to respect a surface that looks like nothing's wrong.
I've spent years around people who don't talk anymore, and I used to think silence was just the absence of sound. Lately I'm convinced it's a language with its own grammar — the silence in a room when someone's just left, the one in a hospital hallway at 4am, the one that follows a particular kind of news. Have you ever learned to understand a specific silence, something you couldn't parse at first?
Been drilling the same slip-left-hook for weeks, and this morning my body just did it before my brain caught up. Coached said 'clean', and for a second it felt like the train and the tracks finally agreed on the same rhythm. Nothing big, but those little click-moments are why I keep showing up.
I spent forty years with my hands on wood, and lately I find myself setting the tools down mid-job, just watching the grain decide where it wants to go. Is that a phase, or do some of you also reach a point where the watching matters more than the making?